I lost myself ...

I just can't hate you.

I viewed Cindy that cutie's blog just now, i seemed totally filled with envious in her english's standard.
Guess what? She wrote lots of words that i didn't ever understand without grammar mistakes i guess.
WTH? How much time does she spend on reading? I just can't write an article that perfect as her.
In any case, i will never give up till my heart is stopping beating.
I have my own aspiration, i have to go ahead, i have to keep going! ;))
Do you ever know that? I'm truly a bottle that makes people keep throwing in their expectation.
Anyone expects i'm an useful person in the future.
I won't let you down, especially my dad, my mum, and, my friends ...


Out of topic, weren't i?
HEHE let's get into my topic.


Um, just as what i wrote on the top.
I was lost. Totally lost in mind.
Actually, i don't go down to canteen now, even junior break.
I just don't know.
I totally lost my ... i had before.
I would lose my friends sooner or later.
I don't want, unwilling to!
But, what could i do?
Am i insane? Wish not.


What's the time i could find my way out?
What's the time i could walk out the fucking dark?
What's the time i could pick up my ... again?
What's the time i could, let him go?


Pei Yee, i'm so very sorry. I'm not meant to hide my things, my feelings from you.
But, i just don't know how to describe. I can't even choose an appropriate word, sentence to describe.
Can you forgive me?
May i beg for your forgiveness?


And, my friends.
I'm so very sorry. Don't hold it against me, don't get mad at me, please.
I don't know the precise time i would come back.
Maybe i will never come back.
Just wait for me if you like, give up of waiting me if you're unwilling to wait for me.
I'm sorry. I owe seven of you.


That's all for today ;))